merry go-round

I guess I never realized how dark my hair is. Now that it's growing out (after my attempts to dye it a light brown/dark strawberry blonde color that really just turned to be a shade lighter) my roots look very dark. I like my hair dark anyways, but I think I'm going to dye it again. I realized I need some kind of somewhat constant change in my appearance, and since I can't afford botox/plastic surgery/eyelash extensions, I'll change my hair. I'm getting rid of the bangs too, well, can't really get rid of them, they have to grow out.

Maybe I have subconscious dreams of being a spy. It's not subconscious, it's actually very conscious. I'd love to be the female James Bond.
When I was younger I loved Nancy Drew. I had the hardcover books 1-20 (with the original covers), and a bunch of random others. Sometimes when I'm bored I'll still read them, but they aren't as good anymore. Nancy Drew is no where near as cool as James Bond either. AND I'm really pissed that "Emma Roberts" is going to be Nancy Drew in the upcoming movie, which looks like shit and totally ruins N.D. for EVERYONE. Sorry, I get really upset when my favorite childhood chapter books are RUINED IN MOVIES.
I'll admit-- Matilda was GREAT, I liked the movie ending to The Witches better than the book, the original Willy Wonka was perrrfect, I still watch the BSB movie.. I never got into Goosebumps though, oh well.
I'm thinking of which book to start reading tonight. I left Mrs. Dalloway in Nora's car, hopefully I'll remember to pick it up from her soon cause I really wanted to finish that.
Mrs. Dalloway + Franny and Zooey are two books that I took out my sophomore year to read. I didn't get into either, and for some reason franny and zooey confused me. But now three/four years later I LOVE Franny and Zooey, so I want to read Mrs. Dalloway and finish it this time and see if the same holds true.
I watched Garden State tonight. I never was too fond of that movie, it's alright I guess. Someone once told me that Natalie Portman's character reminded them of me. For some reason I won't forget that. Probably cause I find myself to be nothing like her, possibly the farthest thing from her, except for her whole lying thing. I think that's why I don't like that movie, cause her character really annoys the shit out of me. I hope I'm not like her... That would suck haha.
I've been really stressed out about what this fall will be like for me.
I can't even think about it actually, I'll just get sick to my stomach and continue to NOT do anything about it. lazy bitch.
I'm going to go watch 70's crime dramas now and find a book to read.

Good night.